Image courtesy of CoPromote.

Image courtesy of CoPromote.

One of the problems of publish all kind of things online it is that your work can easily be lost. It does not matter how good or bad it can be your music, your photography, what you write… because most of the times, or you have a legion of fans that are constantly demanding your work or anything that you do it is like throw stones in the middle of the sea where nobody can see them. They start to fall down until they touch the ground and they are kept in the oblivion but before they will arrive in the deepest of the Mariana Trench, you have the opportunity that somebody will notice the waves that your stones make when they fall into the water.

CoPromote, it is one of this new tech companies which help you with that. They are a network of publishers recommending one to other. With that, you do not only get your work more shared, if not you can even get more fans. It has a very simple use and it is free for basic boots. I recommend you take a look to it here. Good luck :)

Manners Is All That Matters

Be polite is fundamental. It opens you doors as you cannot imagine. It is truth. However, I think that this is one of the biggest missed qualities of our daily society.

Probably, most of this people* can think that act rude and express yourself with insults it is very cool but what they do not know it is that your vocabulary and expressions it is making that other people catalogs you and put you a tag classification as any animal in a zoo.

Let’s say that if a normal human it is classified as Homo Sapiens this kind of people with easy tong could be named Homo Discourteous. I like to call them like that, it is very fancy. However, where I am from, the old people use to say of this people that they have Lizard’s tongue. I do not know the reason why they say that expression but probably it is because lizards tongues are ugly as the tongues of the rude people. This is just my own theory.

Anyway, have a dirty mouth or not it is not the main problem of this question because, in fact, to have manners or not it is simply a lack of the ability of communication. It is easy noticeable that most of this people whom does not speak polity have a huge lack in their vocabulary and they have tendency to draw on the same type of words as a way to express themselves.

Some people could think that this is a problem which only affects to people with poor education or whom they did not had the opportunity to access to a high level of studies: masters, college studies, high school… But each day that pass I find that the number of degrees or academic titles does not have any relationship with to have manners. In fact, I am finding out that when more studies some people has more rude they are.

Years ago, it was very shocking to me the fact that some people had like competitions to see how many books they read in a year but what it was more shocking was that each year they had to overcome their score. For example, if one year you have read 48 books the next year the same person challenged herself to read 52 and each year the number rose.

In my ignorance, I though that this was great and that this kind of people will have more vocabulary than me, that they will speak much better than me and that they will have more knowledges… Please, have in mind that, to me, sometimes it is hard to read. I like to read, but most of the times if I do not like the style in which the text it is redacted I get bored and I need to step back. Other days, I am not really sure of the order of the letters and I read things that are not really there. Conclusion, I read tons of e-mails, blogs, newspapers, magazines, essays… but books: whole books. Probably up to three in a year. In fact, I started It by Stephen King almost two years ago and it is left more than 3/4 to finish it. I do not have excuse to justify myself but the original english written from this author it is very complex to me. I know that I am a weirdo but I understand much better Aristotle and sometimes, I get less bored with this kind of books that with novels.


Julie Andrews in Mary Poppins film. Image courtesy of Walt Disney Productions.

Apart of my personal reading preferences let’s just confirm what most of the people from the college told me: “That I am ignorant because I come from a town.” Having that in mind and that I am extremely weird because I like to eat seaweed**, eat with chopsticks or eat hamburgers or kebabs with knife and fork***; I can tell you that, despite my eccentricities, I am not using the whole day the word F*** and I do not read all that quantity of books.

It is shocking. Most of this people are constantly reading, they have more degrees than I because when all this huge economical crisis arrived like there was not jobs, they decided to study more things and go to the college again. Then, I get surprised when I discover that most of them cannot have a conversation without call you B**** or say the F word several times. I get also surprised when I learnt that one of this colleagues get fired of the museum where she was working for to address to somebody, who she did not know, with bad manners. Unfortunately, it seemed he was the commissary of the exhibition. I am afraid that it is what happens with art and artist, not all of them dress fancy even if they can afford it although the suit does not make the person, isn’t it?

Talking about art, let me tell you some anecdotes: “Years ago, I assisted to an exhibition in Martha Otero’s gallery in Los Angeles. It was a James Jean exhibition. If you know his work or not, I do not care right now. The point is the next. I had several friends in LA and I thought the exhibition would be a good excuse to meet them again and, why not, to try to make some contacts. Even my old teacher from the NYFA was invited to the event by the owner of the gallery but do you know what? None of them came because they did not consider that event important. They let me go alone with the promise that they will assist but they never showed up. It is okay I kept with my life and I looked for my contacts in different places. Months later, I was back in my country and I received an invitation to assist to the premier of War Horse in Los Angeles. I could not assist so I gave this opportunity to one of that folks who did not show up in the art exhibition. I thought like he was trying to promote himself as actor that could benefit him. He did not go neither.

I had ‘certain’ contact with a CEO assistant of Dreamworks in that times and I sent to her some of my work, which I know that it is not going to be awarded with any Pulitzer as my mother insist to remember me but I did. I used my best words, I was the most polite that I could be and I had a polite answer in return. Near in time to the last Academy Awards this actor pal which was the main character in one of my short films was in Los Angeles trying to become a star. He was doing some minor work in Paramount Studios and Steven Spielberg passed next to him. Spielberg stopped and talk with my pal to tell him that he saw him in a school short film which was interesting and not so bad. My ‘friend’ vacillated this in his Fb wall as a great success. I had sent to him few days ago the link for the open cast of Star Wars which he did not wanted to participate neither, but using that as an excuse I asked him about his Fb status and I told him that I sent long ago my short films to Spielberg. Well, I am still waiting a ‘thank you’ or something like that. In fact, the past month suddenly he excluded me from his Fb friendship so I guess that we are not friends anymore. However, I know that he stills working as a famous dog in the Disney theme park. So, I suppose that he missed so many opportunities or, maybe, he is waiting his biggest chance to triumph. I do not know.

Similar thing happened last week with other pal, in this case: a writer. He is american, from Michigan. He lived in Los Angeles for some time but he came back to his state because have a job in that city it is not easy as the dream tells. Well, the other day I received an offer job from Universal Pictures, it is more like a talent contest than a job offer. Let me explain: you will need to send to them a screenplay, if they like yours you pass to round two where they ask you for other one. The candidates which will pass the two rounds will be hired in an internship for one year with a salary of 65,000$ at year. But this opportunity it is only for the people from USA. Seriously, how many people do you think will kill to have this opportunity? Well, I sent it to him and I still waiting the “thanks” but something inside of me tell me that probably he is not going to take this chance neither.”

Members of Emmeline Pankhurst's suffragette movement in Mary Poppins film. Image courtesy of Walt Disney Productions.

Members of Emmeline Pankhurst’s suffragette movement in Mary Poppins film. Image courtesy of Walt Disney Productions.

What do I pretend to say with my personal stories? That the people that I met in Los Angeles are so crazy and nut as the characters of the first season of American Horror Story without being ghosts? That people loves to complain of everything without have taken any of the chances? No, that people is forgetting about manners and they have very serious communicative problems. Because when you send a gift to someone you expect an answer, of any kind, but you want an answer. Or if you really want to meet somebody in a certain place, let’s say Los Angeles, Paris… You arrange a meeting, and if you cannot assist: you send a message, a note or somebody in your place whom can speak in your name. The rest of the things that you can do only show your bad manners and lack of interest. And as I do not have excuse that cannot justify myself to my lack of book reading; this people has neither an excuse to their behavior.

If you ask me, I think one of the biggest problems that Hollywood has it is not that they are not open to new ideas or horizons**** The problem in Hollywood is the bad communication and the rudeness. I will always remember two things:
1. When I was looking for contacts and I found the company Benderspink. They had in their web page an example of what it is not a query letter. The letter was handwritten by somebody who seemed quite desperate and with really bad manners used menacing words to say that if they did not buy his screenplay they will pay it. Naturally, this is not the way to address to others.
2. When I found a contact which had a show in Warner Studios and he asked me for my CV. He was very disappointed because my picture was not attached to my CV but, instead of send me a message asking me for a picture he sent me an e-mail in which the most beautiful word that he said to me was Whor*. Then, I discovered that most of the people in that city are not really looking for fill a vacancy in their show as PA, what they are looking for it is for free sex.

I firmly believe, that if people in Hollywood or in the music industry will address to the rest of the mortals in other terms and matters they will not finished most of their days complaining for how lonely they are and that the only thing that they have it is money which they cannot really expend in what they really like. Before to start to complain, think what you sowed in your way because you will really reap a big pain.

Most of the people that come to LA are looking for a fantastic dream which will never happen. Others are looking for real jobs and professional opportunities. In any case, no one it is judge enough to decide which should receive an answer or which not because you will never know the primordial variant in this equation: success. You do not know who is going to have it who do not and after what I have seen, success does not depend neither of talent. So, why does not people treat well others? Because they are superior? Because they are better? Because the others are ignorant from a town? See, the point? You do not need to travel half world to try to get a job to hear the same words because some people really love to feel superior than others.

Going back to the college. I had some friends who had like an intense period of fandom. In this case, for Harry Potter. I know all the crazy stuff from that era in which HP was the only that “matter”. In fact, I probably have never read that books if I was not hanging out with that girls in that times. We even went to the premiere of the Goblet of Fire in London and then, I learnt that being hours waiting outside the event place suffering all kind of body contusions for a full of neurotics was not my destiny. I tasted once and no more thank you. The case is that they were so addicts to all what the Harry Potter world represented that they found some addresses to send letters to the movie actors. Each time that they received a new one they came very exited to the college to tell to the rest that “The Actor” had answered them. Honestly, it was more priceless the happiness face they had than the letter, but it was great to see that girl that way and not as she used to be, kind sad, anxious or a bit depressed. Each one has their own baggage. Anyway, I learnt with that letters that everything is a lie. A copy and paste in which you will always had the same written expressions, the future projects of this actor and a headshot of him signed. That’s it. It did not matter that you told him that your cat had died, that you are going to go to live to the next door apartment of him because the answer is always the same:

Dear (here they put the personalized name),

I am very grateful for your support and letter. Your sincere words mean a lot to me and I will always keep you in my heart. Your stories, messages and letters are what keep me alive in the darkness hours.

Actually, I am very busy working in (here the name of their upcoming project) and I do not have so much time to answer all your questions but as soon as I can I will do it. In reward of your devote dedication I would like to gift you with this signed picture. I hope this will satisfy your expectations of a formal answer.

Thank you very much for your unconditional support.

Always in my heart,
(Signature and Name)

This is not a copy exactly of what all that letters that they sent to that actors said but almost all of them said the same. I think I remember only Alan Rickman was a bit more original but it was practically the same.

I understand, it is impossible to answer to all of your fans about if their cat has died or if she has problems with her hair but, folks, one thing it is to be almost impossible and the other it is not even try it. There are two different things.

Scene of Mary Poppins film. Image courtesy of Walt Disney Productions.

Scene of Mary Poppins film. Image courtesy of Walt Disney Productions.

I am going to confess two things, or maybe one, I have lost my count. I am very fan of two persons until the point that what they did in fiction or in real they made me change and wanted to be like them in that specific situations or ways they had to deal with life and problems. One of this persons for excellence is Mary Poppins and I am not kidding when I say that her positivity it is admirable. I always wanted to be like her and most of the times when I was young and dark times surrounded me for every corner I thought what will Mary do now? And I though: “Sing”. So, I was always singing like a bird because it was the way to take out of me the problems.

The other person is Viggo Mortensen. I saw A Perfect Murder and I was fascinated by the paintings. Then, I read that he painted all of them for the movie and I started to want to know more about him. The concept of a Renaissance Men came from him. I wanted to be a female version of this classification, I still want to be, and I will not care if people tell me crazy or weird because I like that. I like to create and I like several disciplines. Talent or not, that is not I who must say it. Speak more languages or less, there is time to learn. But definitely, I find his persona fascinating. However, none of these things made me felt the necessity of watch the last movie he made or to send him a letter because I will not know what to tell him.

I am talking you about my idols for one thing and it is the really matter of all this piece. Do you think that is in my family when I learnt to talk in a polite way or having certain manners at the time to talk with others which are not in the same social category than I? Do you think I learnt it reading books? The answer is: no. I did not because if I introduce you my family you will easily check how they have Lizard’s tongue. There is not a day in which I cannot hear a complaining or bad words but each one is the way they choose to be. To most people I am pedantic, lunatic and not fashionable because most of the days I decided to wear plaid leggings in blue tones with a white or salmon sweater. That is the motive of all kind of laughs when you go out there shopping and do you know what? They, without knowing it, are losing a client, not for the criticism if not for their aptitude. This not only happens to me, it happens to everybody in different situations in each corner of the world. So, that old saying of “wash your tongue” is saying you that despite the television series are involuntary teaching that to say filthy words it is cool or to say EW! of everything makes you the Queen Bee. That is not the reality.

One of the things, that I learnt from Viggo was that he disliked that kind of letters that I showed you before, so he answered back all his fans in a handwritten message to avoid that impersonating messages. Sometimes, between the letter and the answer it can pass months but he did not wanted that cold texts to their fans because he would not like them to him. Of course, this was before The Lord of the Rings after that, I do not know what he is doing but I admire that point and I think to be polite it is effortless if you practice it each day.

Most of the people who send letters to idols or to somebody who do not know and they have only watched on screens or listened their music only want to be heard. For any reason, but they want to be listened. Most of this people whom are partners in profession and send letters to “famous” in the sector do not pretend that the “star” looks for them the perfect job and opportunity. They are only looking for advise because they have never faced a situation but the “star” did, so they are looking for an answer from somebody who can understand them because their families or colleagues cannot help them with that. But, meanwhile in the music industry, or Hollywood, they will insist in sell myths, answer rude or with impersonal letters, lying about their past to magnify themselves and create bigger myths or, simply, ignoring the messages. They will never face the huge communicative problem and they will not discover the full potential of communications. But I know that most of this people is not going to change because they are so insecure about themselves and their talent that they are afraid that other steals the “throne”. That’s it.

Julie Andrews, some penguin friends and Dick Van Dyke in Mary Poppins film. Image courtesy of Walt Disney Productions.

Julie Andrews, some penguin friends and Dick Van Dyke in Mary Poppins film. Image courtesy of Walt Disney Productions.

So now, talking about communications. I have tried to be polite with one of my followers. He is from the musical side and I do not really have an answer that can help him but like in our days communication permits us to connect with a lot of people at the same time. I thought that maybe someone out there could know the answer to his tiny trouble. He agreed in that I publish a part of his letter to me. Let’s see:

“Our band has a Spanish connection. We are re-releasing our songs on an LP, and we are having it manufactured, partially, in Spain. It is being manufactured in 4 European countries. I am very happy! (But no one has to buy our music, because anyone who likes our songs can find all of them, free on YouTube. The music is free. Only collectors actually pay to buy our music.) Hope you enjoy the videos!”

We all now that the music industry it is not in the best moment for anybody but I am sure somebody out there know what to do to resolve this problem. Because if collectors want to pay to buy their music maybe it is all a copyright problem with Youtube.

If anybody has a possible solution to this, please, comment bellow I am sure he will appreciate the information that I could not provide to him.

The conclusion of all this personal babbling it is simple. It does not matter who you are or who you think you are because you are made of flesh and bones like any other. Be polite, be educated and showing tact and manners towards others will always help you. Forget about be cool or not. After all, what everybody wants it is to have a bunch of doors open and, possibly, windows too to let fresh air make you breath in asphyxiating times and do not need to depend of fans. To the ones who did not catch the metaphor it does not mind because “Manners is all that Matters” and nothing else. Not the talent, neither to have success.

*who is always watching this kind of teenage series in which the words F*** and B**** are constantly in their mouths,

**Whatever they say but Nori and Wakame bites are delicious.

***because I do not feel in the mood to get my hands greasy
****creative and technology talking.

It Was a Night in Vegas

I would like to make a short introduction to the post of this week. Sometimes, people do things thinking that they are helping you, that this act or that other that they are doing it is going to make you stronger. Most of the times, people act without thinking in the consequences that some acts can cause to others because they simply think in themselves, in old traditions or they do not think at all. This song is about Vegas but it could have been about Los Angeles, Valencia or Stockholm. The place is meaningless what it is important it is how the people make you feel about a certain theme, how a lot of them act having fun at you without most of the times they know your baggage. How most of the people acts from their point of view: classifying the other, judging and without ask nothing about the other they point at finger pointing towards the other. A finger more dangerous than a loaded gun because some wounds do not heal even with time. You simply can ignore them but they are always going to be there to remember you the past. To remember you how a person, how some words, can really hurt and change someones life.

It Was a Night in Vegas

It was a night in Vegas

When life turn a round

The day that I met you

The night I break the bound

In Vegas, I let you go


Walking around with my guitar friend

I arrived to the city when the whole world goes to play

And there was music, and there was fun,

Everything was shiny but it wasn’t gold: dust.


Behind the curtains, the paper decorations and the lights

The spectacle was so simple that it would not enchant

Not the believers, not the followers, not the fans

Only charming faces, fit bodies but everybody wearing a mask


It was a night in Vegas

When I see what hides behind

The skeletons the bones

All that you hide and you cannot let behind

In Vegas, I let you go


All is a game and all is a huge lie

Where singers are actors,

where only rules the spectacle,

where the impostors live their life


My six string and I could not believe that lie

but Vegas was hiding something worst than lies

Sin was everywhere,

lust filled the ambient,

but it was in Poker

when I met for the first time your face.


The table is limited

not everybody can bet

and only the ones with the better cards

will win the game

In Vegas, I let you go


Kings, queens,

A’s everything has a value,

everything has a sense.

I lay my cards down

and I said that I did not want to play.

I don’t like to bet.

But you did and continue it

until your last dime was burnt in that no sense.

In Vegas, I let you go


Here I left but you can’t because you was in debt

with all the players whom you has borrowed their time, their sense, their lives.

In Vegas, I let you go


It was a night in Vegas

When you started all

When I met you and I let you go

How to Find the Right Balance to Your Skin

I have missed several weeks of post things for several reasons: the first is that I did not really felt in the mood to write nothing. In part, for several family reasons and all kind of circumstances which involved other human beings. The second reason was that I wanted to write about the skin but I was not really prepared to do it and my research deluded in time more than I expected. And, finally, the last reason in which my own skin was involved but let me explain it to you better.

As I told you several times in my different blogs (this one and the photo one) my intention it is not become a model or an “it girl”. I simply would like to make some real photo-shooting for magazines but, like I cannot, I practice the technique with myself for the moment. The case is, that it is a bit nuts but in reality almost, or all the pictures that you can see published are shot the same day*. This implies to change the custom several times, sometimes even the light and the make-up. Well, like I had some extra time one of the pasts days of july I decided to do the same and I took several portraits the same day.

The problem was that when I was preparing my skin to the last shooting I felt like something was going wrong on my skin but I simply ignored it and I kept with the job. At night, my right eyelid was burnt with a clear red spot on it. My skin was extremely dry and it showed some red itchy spots in several points of my face. That itchy points were my facial veins. The fancy medical term to call this it is “telangiectasias” which it is not other thing that a type of rosacea or dermatitis, as you wish to call it. In my case, it affects to my eyes too (inside and outside) and trust me when I say that it is quite difficult to scratch your eye ball when it is itchy**.

Then, I decided that my skin needed a break so I started a minimal beauty care routine that included my soap and a SPF cream, nothing else but it did not worked, in fact, it went worst. I quitted the soap of my routine and I only used water and the SPF cream but it was not working neither. Since then, I have become a crazy chemist which is searching all the tags of my cosmetic products looking for the full ingredient description. Then, I started to test everything on other parts of my skin and checking which was good for me and which not.

Ladies and gentleman, now I really understand why some people call to rosacea the “curse of the Celts” because it is a really pain…*** After my personal experience and thanks to Charlotte Tilbury for suggest in one of her videos “rose water” for dry skin. I have arrived to several chemistry conclusions:

1. It does not matter how “good” the brand is. Which is their reputation or how expensive it is. Most of them include chemicals that are not really good for my skin.
2. Most of the most expensive brands will sell you that their products are made with natural products…, that they do not test on animals…, that they are dermatologic tested… But most of them still including parabens.
3. Not for being products from the pharmacy or from spas this products are exempt of aggressive chemicals.
4. Not for being “natural” products means that they are exempt of aggressive chemicals. Most of them are not sold in their original chemistry form and they are diluted with other chemicals.
5. I will buy what it is good for my skin not will the brand will sell me even making me tons of gifts.

What I am going to do if I have been born with a sybarite skin? Just give to it what it really wants because, after all, skin is the biggest organ of our body and it seems stupid how most of the times we forget to care about it. I like my body, it needs a lot of love so I am going to give it to it. However, imagine if the drama was big that I even had to give up to my favorite fragrance of Chanel. Bye, bye Coco Mademoiselle. That really affected me hard but the Coumarin really burns my skin, even more than parabens. So, bad luck I guess…

Cara Delevingne for Mario Testino. Allure Magazine

Cara Delevingne for Mario Testino. Allure Magazine

Anyway, that my skin is a sybarite does not really mean that some of this products are bad. In fact, I used very popular brand products and they really work as they promise but they are not good for me and it does not matter what “the brand” spokesperson or saleswoman want to tell me: “That their products are good…, that I only need to fit better my skin care regime…, that when you are with a “rosacea crisis” there is not product in the market that will fit you so better keep with this ones…,  that the other brand is not so good as mine…” Yes, your products are great but not good enough for my exquisite skin and that is what matters at the end of everything.

I cannot show you my skincare routine because it was imposible to find one that fits me yet but, to all who has this problems I hope to share with you one soon. Look the way the things are but it seems that my back years of chemistry**** are given me some fruits.

However, as most of you are telling me that you have a very dry skin and you asking me for solutions I think I am going to give you some kind of answer. I cannot tell you: “this product” it is what you need because if I apply my case to you some chemicals dry my skin more than others and it does not matter at all with the condition of my skin. For example, to me, parabens and coumarin burn my skin and EDTA‘s and phenoxyethanol really dry it. If you combine a bit of all of them in several high-rated quality brands you have the reason to my skin problem. Well, or it is that or it is because a Wicked Celt Witch has decided to curse me but, in that case, I think the Witch should tie her shoes well*****

I recommend you that first to try anything you simply check if your skin starts to feel better without using any product. Use only water for one day or two and check it. Maybe you have been born with an exquisite skin too but, maybe, some chemicals are affecting your cells. So do simply that for a while and later you can check products that could have some of this ingredients:
1. Rose Water or Rose Extracts: It hydrates and regenerates the skin. If you have redness it reduces too.
2. Aloe Vera: Calms and hydrates the skin.
3. Licorice Root Extract: “Awakes” the skin, prevents of dullness and regenerates the damage.
4. Grape Oil Extract: Full in anti-oxidants, high hydrating, smooths and regenerates. You can simply use one grape cut it in half and rub it on your clean skin. This calms inmediately.
5. Evening Primrose Oil Extract: Hydrates and nourishes.
6. Caffeine: Awakes the skin prevent dullness.
7. Vitamin C: Awakes the skin and smooths it.
8. Citric Acid: Brightens the skin.
9. Salicylic Acid: Helps with the spots and the breakouts helping to the easy healing.
10. Hyaluronic Acid: Hydrates and restores the hydric components of the skin cells.

I hope this helps. For my part I am going to try to write and post more frequently and to keep with my personal chemical quest. Wish the odds will be at my favor… Take care folks.

*That, of course, include also the other huge quantity of takes that are discarded too.
**Do not do it folks. In fact, it does not matter how itchy it is, do not scratch none of the parts of your skin.
***Well, you are all grown up enough to know where is the pain.
****They were very long ago. I think in the Pleistocene or for that times approximately.
***** I watch Supernatural and I dislike “evil”. So, do not mess with me or Dean, Sam and Cass will go after you. I am sure they will.

Do you copy?

San Francisco, California. A business man of J...

San Francisco, California. A business man of Japanese ancestry confers with a representative of the . . . – NARA – 536054 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

They say that a good entrepreneur or marketer it is not the one who can manage the company perfectly if not the great manager it is the one who can see in the market the future perspectives of business.

Now, if you ask me what I have been doing all this time without post anything I will be shortly: meditating because I felt not interested neither in business neither in the future. However, do not be publishing stuff does not mean do not do nothing. In this last weeks suddenly I felt a terrible fascination to know more about packaging and organic chemistry, not the one which implies a fluid exchange. I know that most of you are a bunch of dirty birdies. No, I felt interested in how a molecule can change your skin, for good or bad, and how certain components like hyaluronic acid can help to hydrate the sky; how the glycolic acid helps to remove spots in the dermis and make your tone more even and fair…

Probably, most of you are thinking: “What the hell…?” But I know that I am a weirdo, that nobody understand my jokes and that meanwhile some of you prefer to go to crazy raves I prefer to waste my time with books. As Lady Gaga once said: “I born this way” and this is the way I am. Although please let me tell you what has made me wake up of my publishing silence: the word “inscrutabile”. Somebody left it in format of virtual message in my page and I must confess that like english it is not my first language I had to search it in my dictionary and, ignoring, certain grammatical misspells I suppose that the being who left this try to say that I am difficult to understand. I am glad that my mind can be a whole mystery for you. It has been a pleasure to learn that new word or compliment that you left in my site but quoting one of the greatest wizards in the world I am not more complicated than him:

“I see myself holding a pair of thick, woolen socks.” Harry stared. “One can never have enough socks,” said Dumbledore. “Another Christmas has come and gone and I didn’t get a pair. People will insist on giving me books.” (PS12)

And in case that you do not get it, dear folk, this means that sometimes even the most complicated people in the world needs the most basic things: socks, hugs, kisses, somebody who will offer to prepare them a meal… So simple like that but I am sure that you do not get it so let it be.

Anyway, like I am in the wizard world mood I think that I am going to resolve some of your other crazy questions like for the example, the ones about “who should not be named”. You keep asking as mad monkeys for this bad ass rock star/actor/artist/hairy singer who I cannot see even in pictures. You keep asking if he is in Sgt. Pepper‘s movie or who is dating or about his baby because it seems he has left pregnant somebody… I do not know, I do not care… as if he wants to dance naked in the middle of the stage and pee all his fans as, I think, Iggy Pop once did. All their troop are blocked and there is no going back in my decision. If they want to still playing gigs or selling new stupid merch to some of their cuckoos is their problem not mine but, as you are very very very curious about to know if he has any relationship with Sgt. Pepper’s I can say NO. Almost, I am talking from my web domain site if you mean the Beatles album or Sgt. Pepper’s movie well… ask him if he was one of the hairy weirdos next to the Bee Gees but I will not answer you more about that.

This remembers me to mention that I do not accept virtual invitations, or virtual congratulations or grateful cards/messages of any kind. I am very old school and I still loving the physical handwritten ones. And this has remembered me a story that I wanted to tell you; a story about Los Angeles.

Los Angeles City Hall, 2009.

Los Angeles City Hall, 2009. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I am a hillbilly from a town. I passed half of my life between two towns because my family had some issues. In one of them, the people was always the best in everything and most of my school partners received a 50€ pay at week only when we were 8 years old. In the other town, most of my friends had never tasted a yogurt at the age of 8 because it was expensive when, in other hand, the parents of this kids had received that year around 1 and half million of euros by the selling of the products of their orchards. So, as you can see life was very different in both sides.

Los Angeles it is a huge city but as most of the parts of America only money and the appearance counts. If you can afford the rent of a studio by your own they arrive to the conclusion that you are rich and the fact that you dress like what they call “european clothes” that make you respectful. However, this does not mean that you are stylish because that means: “to wear brand clothes”. Where I am from we have a refrain which says: “Despite the monkey dress in silk, monkey it will be.” In case that some of you did not get it, this means that the clothes do not make the person.

I can tell you that there is a bunch of fake people around the world but in that city you have more chance to find more for square meter. Most of them will tell you how fabulous you are, how perfect, angelical… they will promise you the moon, the sky and the stars to later when they will not receive from you what they wanted to receive they will attack you stabbing you with all their weapons from behind. But, just for clarify, the fun part of this it is that before they try to poison you or your mind they never tell what they wanted from you. They simply attack and you should guess why they are now against you.

I confess that I am not a very social person and that I do not like to claim to the forth winds if I travel here or there, if I am dating somebody, if I am single… In this aspect I am reserved and I only say it with marketing terms and proposals, nothing else, guys.

Recently, I sent to one of my old Los Angeles friends a bracelet with a handwritten note. This is my style, like when I send cupcakes or other sweets to someone. My “friend” is from Mexico and I am from Spain so it is not a cheap sending but I think that most of you know what it is the tracking number, do not you? It is a code which can be used to track anything that you send paying that additional cost. Well, I suppose that she and I do not speak the same language because three weeks later than the tracking number told me that she had received the gift she told me a short virtual thanks adding that usually no one uses the mail system anymore. I do not know if she liked it, or not. I do not know nothing else. Just that she only sends me messages when I publish certain things, then she comes back to her “sister” asking me about my life but when I say: “I publish certain things…” I do not mean in my personal Facebook. I mean in my blogs, and do you know why? Before this kind of situations happened I have never posted nothing in my personal accounts to make reference to this site. Nothing.

So, when I posted this ring in my photographic site. Suddenly, I received an e-mail of her asking me if I was going to marry and as I said: NO. She became offended with me. I do not know folks, I suppose there is a bunch of people like my mom around there in the world gossiping online what one does or one do not does but, honestly, I do not give damn. I do not give it anymore.

People thinks that because you have made a picture of a ring you are going to marry, or because you do not publish you are sad, or because you do not go out you are depress, or because you take a picture of yourself in bikini you want to be a model, or because you say how to create a make-up style or give a beauty advice you are going to “steal” the job to some people, or because you do not publish your pictures in chronologic order you are lying and you have never traveled anywhere, or because some pictures are decent enough they are not yours and you have stolen from the web… But, later, some of this people who are always putting tags on you they have the right, without ask you permission, to take your logos, your signs, and make parodies of them, use them as their own promotional use or economical benefit and later they are not obliged to tell you not even thanks. It is okay, I understand. It is easy to destroy and copy than to create and to be original. The chaos creates more instability and that gives you more fans which at long term are more possible clients. I know it and it is fine. Continue your path and I will follow mine but now, let me answer you directly to some of your instability feeds that you/fans/crazy folks or simple people who is always searching seven feet to a cat is leaving me of my site:

sgt peppers in long beach: I’ve never be there. Is it nice?
lonely garlic: I use garlic a lot when I cook. They say that it keeps away the vampires and I like that but I never use it or eat it alone. I think it taste better if it is mixed with other ingredients.
steven tyler/sargent peppers lonely hearts club band: He is in the movie and I love his voice. Aerosmith is one of my favorite bands.
van houten chocolate: No idea about Van Houten and not a real enthusiast of chocolate.
+bansky spionage: Ask Bansky about that.
the lonely hearts by julia roberts: Definitely, this is a good title for a book. Please,can somebody suggest to Ms Roberts publicist or agent this title idea? Thanks.
tony had to make a few bands on my lonely: Why do not you ask Tony, then?
sausage & peppers lonely heart from what state do they live: I think, but maybe it is just me, that you can get sausage and peppers in any grocery store. But if in some states they “live” better ones for satisfy your needs simply go on.
peppers writing club dannielynn: Who is he?
stops: using the information learned in this course, explain three things you will not do when driving.: I am like six months receiving this. Not sure about this bad joke but it is obvious, do not you think?
smoke me sgt and past on back: I believe in spaces with clean air.
who is sausage and peppers lonely hearts club band: No idea. You created it. Not me.
dreams being multifaceted artist entertainer: Work hard. Dream less.
seems grow increasingly lonely unsatisfied wake new communicational: I use to be modest but I know a bit about communications. Check my linkdln profile. I do not consider most of the virtual communication, communication at all. Most of it is impersonal, they forget about the direct message or the receptor and most of them it gives ten kicks to most of the dictionaries of all languages around the world.
sgt pepper lonely hearts club fan: No darling, I do not have a fan. I prefer to open the windows. It is more refreshing.
“is it ok” to burn powder puff trees: If you say so…
what kind of a doughnut is sgt. balzac eating in home alone?: Ask Balzac.
pepper and tony have a rocky relationship but he is asked what he would sacrifice to protect her what would you do to protect the ones you love or are: First, I am Esther and I do not respond to any other name or nickname of any kind. Sgt. Pepper is the brand of my site STOP. But if you ask me what I would sacrifice to protect the ones I love I have it clear: my freedom or my life.
need for speed worldless: Worldless it is my other brand. That others used that name for other stuff it is their problem not mine. But I have never played that video game if you ask.
stallone and pepper: Ask Sly.
destroy ebola dna: Virus have RNA not DNA. I will give you a class of virology but I am afraid you will be not interested. About destroy that virus… I wish I could but I cannot.
everyone wants a place in someone’s heart: True but when you arrive and touch others hearts you also want that they give you back what you offered them. Not material things, feelings. But, in our days give but do not receive it is our daily routine. That is the reality give and be always the bad when you become tired, after years, of do not receive nothing that is a fact.
did all of the school shooters have pale skin?: I do not know. Ask any person from the USA I am from Europe and I am against weapons and anybody who holds one of them.
i never really had much of a childhood because of the neighborhood that i grew up in had a: I am sorry to read that.
+teen tattler girls flirt older men: I am not a teen. Do not know what you mean.
best gift for photographer: I am not photographer. I simple apply the Rilke rule that if you do something you are something. So simple as it. But if you ask me about the best gift for me. It will be helping Mario Testino, Karl Lagerfeld, Janusz Kaminski to prepare any set. That was my dream: to have a mentor, to learn. However, as I do not have a fairy Godmother but all the people treat me like if I am the one of them. I can tell you that the best gift that you can make me is tea, a weird blend that I have not tasted before or a simply one which I love it. I do not need nothing else but you can also add a hug. Well, I also accept fresh fruit.
esther photobomb: I can swear it is not me. I consider it very impolite.
places that are lie los angeles: Hollywood, to start.
how to create make up: That’s what I am interested right now.
bird, plane? no, its the wedding photographer: I’m afraid I am not.
justice for esther the dog: I do not know any dog with that name but if you refer to me. Well, not sure how are you going to ask for my justice.
herreraisabel twitter: Sorry Isa, I’m not going to look for you.
im not from this world: From which one are you then?
make a wish esther: Peace: of mind, of heart, in the people, in the world… That everybody can feel the calm without the necessity to destroy more homes or shed more blood. That nobody attacks others for hate, envy or pure joy just that people let it be all.

you copy: In case of you do not know “Do you copy?” is a slang expression used by the English speakers when they are talking in walkie talkies. You can hear that expression a lot if you watch films with a lot of armies or policemen. I like to make puns with my titles I hope know everything it is more clear.

necessary girlfriend pet feel lonely somebody talk bar borrowing cigarette : One day I will make a post about clear communications… So, tell me, do you have a pet who needs a girlfriend and you are borrowing cigarettes in a bar or what?

explain sometimes contrasting makes sgt star feel little bit human: No idea about what you are talking.

pepper band hawaii now i know what i want: I have two pals living in Hawaii but I have never been there. But if you know what you want go for it.

peppers nightclub germany: Not me. Be sure. I dislike nightclubs and I try to avoid Germany when I travel as you do not have idea.

laura shy hides inner beauty thinking strange world minor defect: No idea of who is Laura but if she is shy because an inner problem or insecurity she should learn to overcome it to try to feel more confident. Well, almost, this is my opinion.

marlon brando sargent peppers:  No, Marlon Brando is in The Godfather. Series which I finally could see complete. Wow!

do you bake the half pepper with the silicon or do you remove the fimo from the silicon and then bake ?: Here you are cooking friend! You must be the one who is not from this world, right? Because you cook peppers with silicon and… well, that recipe it is not from our planet. Not, really, trust me. I recommend you that you ask this question to the extraterrestrial chef in which you have seen this recipe. I do not really know this recipe and to me the silicon and fimo ingredients are very strange but, in Earth, when you bake a pepper it peels off easily once if it is baked. Again, syntonize your planet cooking channel or learn from other alien: Alf.

i truly believe that everything that we do and everyone that we meet is put in our path for a purpose. there are no accidents; we\\\’re all teachers – if we\\\’re willing to pay attention to the lessons we learn, trust our positive instincts and not be afraid to take risks or wait for some miracle to come knocking at our door.: First check my Twitter feed to see my opinion about teachers. Then, again, I repeat: It is sad that most of the people who we meet in our path do not teach us nothing positive because even if we follow our most positive instincts we cannot learn of this people nothing with good qualities. I am not afraid to take risks and I do not believe in miracles. I only believe in work hard and to give thanks to the Lord for what I have. This is my belief. However, I understand what you mean because I live surrounded by people who is always expecting miracles, who they always want to win the lottery when they have already a bunch of bills under their pillows but who are always complaining about how poor or disgraceful they are. I live surrounded by people who believes what the horoscope says it is going to happen and when you finish your coffee and read your cup and you have certain symbol this will mean that, what the symbol means to them, it is going to happen to you. But if you count the hours at day that they do of work and how many they expend watching television or looking at the horizon (literally) you will find that if you translate that working numbers to a week they had not even work, even, a day. But they are always very tired and they are always complaining about everything. So I understand what you mean.

“when you need it how much you need and whom you need” or or “you need and whom you need it for makes buying easier and” or or “it for makes buying easier and the accuracy can save an organization”: Be clear.

“not like illegal emigrants and she did”:  I have never been an illegal in any place where I have been. In fact, you do not know me. I have never expressed my opinion about illegal immigrants. So, stop saying stupid affirmations about me. However, if you want my opinion about illegal immigrants I am going to give you. Like or dislike are not the right words for describe it. I understand that most of this people are so desperate for try to have a new life in a “better” country that most of them do all kind of things that are not legit but I believe that the solution to the problem it is not to cross a frontier and with that your life suddenly will change. I compare that the problem of illegal emigrants it is the same that most of people have with Los Angeles: everybody travels there waiting for the miracle, for the luck that will change their lives and will make them easier. Unfortunately, most of this people finish living in the streets in very bad conditions and do you know why? Because a “better” life cannot be found in other city or other country, it must be found inside of oneself and this person will should make changes to get that objective. Sometimes this person will should make changes that will blow his/her mind and his/her way of act and thinking but, in that resides the improvement: “in change”. In change from inside towards forward until be better, until live better. Nonetheless, go to one place to other trying to catch the dreams and fake stories that others are selling will not drive people to any point. That story of I was in the right place in the right moment it only happens to one between a million. The rest, are only inventions and myths that people creates around them to sell more or to edulcorate the cruel real facts that happened to them until arrive to what they sell as “better live”. But this is other long philosophical point about why people always wants to be like the oil and float over the rest of the water. Again, about immigration, I do not have any issue about if it is legal or illegal always that this people come to their new country with the intention to change, work and try to improve their lives, but I believe that if most of this people will really know that all that they are listening in the media about Europe or USA it is a fantasy. That life here it is not so easy and storytelled as the press tells for them, they will think twice before to try to cross in illegal ways the frontiers.

favors elizabeth making scenes prefers being humble staying out everybody’s way: I am not Elisabeth and I completely dislike to make scenes. To me drama is only valid in the movies and I try to avoid all this people who lives only to make dramatic scenes. Their pathos depresses me until the point that it disturbs my inner peace. So, as an old refrain says: “Better to stay alone than in bad company.” My motto.

Not sure if I have could answer to all your crazy thoughts but I did my best. I think the human being is losing their ability of communication. It is true that in our days we have more options that can make communications easier than before but, at the same, time we are losing the ways in how to do it appropriately and this drives us to a daily path of constant misunderstood and mental confusions. Sadly, this is not only happening in the virtual world and it is extending to all the communicative areas. I am sure you have already heard about the orthographic mistakes by most kids and teens in the school because they write on paper as they write on their cellphones: with all kind of abbreviations and codes. However, we are not only losing that capacity because, in most cases, the same fact it is affecting to our verbal communication too. Most of the people is so accustomed to publish in the social networks everything that they think that they do the same in persona but, of course, without specify a receptor of the message as it is habitual in the virtual world. I do not know. I see a lot of stupid things around me that I prefer to ignore or maybe one day I will decide to write a post about it and talk more. I do not know. The only thing that I know is that if we do not worry in try to understand the other, ask him/her about the world will finish as Gandhi once said: “An eye for an eye only ends up making the whole world blind.” The same happens with communication.